disappear.

I want to disappear today.

ah.

I don’t know what I think about anything or anyone I know anymore.
Clueless.

shit.

I give up.

2010

I feel numb.

Previously when things weren’t right, I would get mad or sad about it. If I didn’t get something done, I would panic.
But for awhile now, I just haven’t felt anything.
It’s weird.

If I didn’t know any better, I might even say I genuinely just don’t care.

I’m alive but.. I’m not living.
It’s an extremely strange existance.

on top of being extremely careful about who you trust, i think you also need to be extremely conscious of who trusts you- with what, to what degree, and on what basis.

i think i am confusing apathy with peace of mind.

i want to crawl into a hole and get covered with lots of dirt so that no one can find me for awhile.

new favourite = QUIZNOS BEEF AND SWISS MELT

beef + swiss cheese + toasted sesame garlic bread bun + parmesan alfredo sauce (same one on chicken carbonera) + sauteed mushrooms

MMM MMM GOOOD

ITS THE WEEKEND IN T-MINUS 7 HOURS.
YEEEEEEEEEHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH!

im going to kill somebody today.

sometimes i think the people i have to deal with through work, ignore me or dont take my instructions seriously because they know i am a young inexperienced female in the construction industry – which i am.
sometimes its discouraging and other times it just makes me mad and want to be better.
today it’s discouraging.