sink or swim

i feel like i’ve jumped into and have drowned myself in some lake, and now my dead body is floating- with my face down into the water.
my entire body is numb because i’m dead but i can still see where i floated up from.
i feel very uneasy about everything and think an escape to trenton will be good to rebalance my mind.
i have monday off, but not so much anymore.
we’ve landed a big contract with york and it’s major go-time.
i have to be back to oversee some minions render, i’m not sure what my purpose will be there, but i think he just needs mental insurance that things are being taken care of.
we got our business cards today and the alignment is off.
slightly irritated but its good enough.